Wednesday, November 29, 2017

Masked Identity

Materials:
Wire, gel medium, tracing paper, hot glue, preserved Spanish moss







In Bloom

Artist Statement:
     In this project, I wanted the mask to represent some of what I've been going through this passed semester. It's been a particularly rough one, and keeping my head above water has been difficult to say the least. However, I did my best to take an outside stance and think more on the growth that I'm experiencing through all of this. I can't necessarily see it, but I've grown stronger and have learned myself's limits, and that there is strength in admitting one's weaknesses. 
     For the structure of the mask, I wanted the angles to be harsh and sharp, something unnatural and startling to look at. My thought process was that the harsh angles would look almost painful, because often times pain is very much involved with self-growth, and usually it's a very uncomfortable experience. Furthermore, the wearer can't see out of the mask. This is representative of how usually we can't see what the actual outcome of the work is that you're doing to yourself, you just hear how people have told you you've changed. The mask renders the person blind, and they must rely on their other senses to understand the mental/emotional/etc changes they're going through. Furthermore, there's a juxtaposition between the organic material and unnatural shape, as change is a very natural thing people go through all the time, whether big or little, but it usually makes us feel uncomfortable or anxious. I also wanted the mask to be made of the organic material to emphasize where real self-growth and change is cultivated (the mind), but more on that later.
     I chose for the setting to be outside because it is a reminder of how, just as there is personal growth, you have to be aware that others are growing around you too. Sometimes you can't see that either. It just happens.
     The poses range slightly in the chosen photos. Mostly it involves a spade digging into the mask/resting near it, with a flower being held by the stem propped against it. The hint at literal digging and planting into the mask is representative of how we grow and change our minds/selves every day. Again, sometimes this is painful, shown with the spade digging into the "skull"/mask, but the experience is necessary nevertheless in order to grow from it, and to grow the flower.
     The outfit, which is just a simple black dress, is meant to emphasize the change from the body to the head. The black I wanted to be symbolic and/or reminiscent of soil. While physical changes are obvious, the mind is where true growth happens, which is why the mask is covered in the green moss.
     I only had two props. The first is the spade, which represents the tools/self-work that goes into cultivating personal growth. Its sharpness and almost-stabbing motion in the pictures represents that sometimes personal growth requires accepting flaws and working through them, trying to change them, even if it's painful. The flower metaphorically stems from the mask, but is unseen by the wearer. The only interaction they have with the flower is holding the stem. Although this new beginning (further emphasized by the pure, white color) has formed and flourished, it isn't always easily seen because growth is not always obvious to oneself, even if other's notice it easily. All the wearer feels are the thorns on the stem, not the blossom.

Inspiration:
Gladys Paulus, artist, UK

Craig Green, UK

Yuni Kim Lang, artist, USA


Tuesday, November 28, 2017

"On Longing" Exercise


Responses to Excerpts of "On Longing" by Susan Stewart 






"Nostalgia cannot be sustained without loss"


            This is a photo of a wedding picture including my grandmother and grandfather, both of whom died recently. There is nostalgia only because they are gone, gone in a way that breeds strong emotions. This photo encompasses their love and the presence they had and it causes me to long to see them again. 






"To have a souvenir of the exotic is to possess both a specimen and a trophy"


            This photo is one I took in Bogota, Colombia of graffiti. It is likely that this picture is covered up by now, and so it is a souvenir to me reminding me of the beautiful city in all it's exotic glory. It is a trophy because I was able to see and partially capture it before it disappeared. 





"The body is the primary mode of perceiving scale"


This photo is one of me at Castillo de San Marcos. The wall bordering the sea and the fort's size is shown in comparison to my body. One might not be able to understand the scale of the wall if my body was not in this photo. Additionally, without standing by it, I may never have been able to understand the true scale of the fort. 





"Capacity of objects to serve as traces of authentic experience"


         This guitar pick is one I received at an A Day to Remember concert. Holding this pick and even seeing this photo takes me right back to the night that I got to see the band from my home town in a very limited venue. This pick serves as a trace of one of the coolest nights of my life. 





"The souvenir reduces the public, the monumental, the 3D into the miniature, that which can be enveloped by the body".


This is a souvenir I got from Santa Fe, New Mexico. The city is displayed in the background of the graphic in it's full southwestern glory, shrunken but still somehow just as stunning. The colors are all indicative of the town as is the architecture shown in the drawn buildings, and yet it can be held in one hand. It evokes many memories for me, ones that take me back to standing on Santa Fe streets, but instead of smelling the desert air I am able to close my palm around it. 

Monday, November 13, 2017

Touch Exercise

                                                                       

   Kissing 

                 "One style of sex can be bare bones, fundamental  and unromantic, but a kiss  is the height of voluptuousness, and expense of time and an expanse of spirit in the sweet toil of romance, when one's bones quiver, anticipation rockets, but gratification is kept at bay on purpose, in exquisite torment,to build to a succulent crescendo of emotion and passion." -Diane Ackerman

               I took this image as a representation of kissing because in it I find the succulence and build up that Ackerman describes in her work. The kiss is sensual and often unprovoked, a type of  impulsive display of intense feeling that creates a whole flood of emotion. I said "kiss me" to my long term boyfriend and snapped this image to show the sort of intense passion in evoked- you can see how his lips are pressed against my shoulder and how the corners of his mouth are positioned in a grin, how his eyes closed. The kiss is full of it's own erotic and blissful feeling while also alluding to what more there is to come. 








The Point of Pain

"There is a deep emotional component to pain."- Diane Ackerman 

                This is photo represents pain's unusual subjectivity. Normally a bite would elicit a shooting, unpleasant pain, but a bite from a lover can go unnoticed or become so wrapped in pleasure that it is not minded. Scientists can't figure out why we feel pain any more then they can figure out why we feel love, nor can they decipher what exactly elicits it. Pain is as emotional as it is sensory, something I think this picture shows. The bite would hurt if it wasn't done in passion and with love. The point of this pain is pleasure. 

3D to 2D Assignment

"In Bloom" 3D mask converted into 2D Collage        For my 3D to 2D project, I took my favorite photo of my mas...